Dream

In my hallucinations I saw my beloved’s serene love filled garden.

In my vertigo, in my dizziness, In my drunken haze forced by medications, whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel.

I saw myself as the source of existence.

I was there in the beginning and I was the spirit of love.

Now I am sober

There is only the hangover and the memory of love.

And only the sorrow, I yearn for happiness

I ask for a hand, a lgiggle, a story to tell of past lives and memories still a part of the me today.

I want mercy & the feeling of being wanted.

And my love says: Look at me and hear me

Because I am here, just for that!

I am your moon and your moonlight too!

I am your serene & love filled garden and your water too.

I have come all this way, eager for you,

without shoes or my pashmina!

I want you to laugh

To kill all your worries

To love you

To nourish you

Oh sweet bitterness

I will soothe you and heal you

I will bring you my vine flowers, honeysuckle, jasmine & a tree filled with eucalyptus to help

Sooth your soul

I, too, have been covered with thorns and full of scars ❤️