Intentions

I ALWAYS TRY TO REMEMBER THERE IS A VERY BIG DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MY PERSONAL UNDERSTANDING OF SOMEONE'S WORDS AND ACTIONS, AND THEIR ACTUAL INTENTION.

I REALLY TRY MY BEST NOT TO LET MY MIND WONDER WHY THINGS HAPPEN.

BUT TODAY IS A DIFFERENT KIND OF DAY! I FEEL LOST, HURT, I LITERALLY FEEL PHYSICAL PAIN. I FEEL THE ONE PERSON I TRUSTED IN THIS WORLD WAS A SIMPLE LIAR, A BREAKER OF ALL PROMISES MADE! I FEEL I HAVE PERSONALLY LOST ALL MY FAITH THAT TOOK ME DECADES TO BUILD AND THE SADDEST PART IS THAT HE KNOWS AND IS LAUGHING ABOUT IT NOW! ALL I WAS TO HIM WAS A POCKET! A POCKET TO PAY OUTSTANDING DEBT, A CAR, CLOTHING, FOOD, STYLE AND EVEN PERSONALITY & MUCH, MUCH MORE! HOW DO I RECOVER MYSELF, ALONG WITH MY FAITH AND TRUST?

I, INSTEAD WILL TRY TO RE-LEARN TO WISELY BE THE WITNESS OF ALL OF LIFE'S UNFOLDING. TO VIEW OTHERS THROUGH THE EYES OF LOVE AND FROM A HEART THAT HAS CHOSEN NOT TO JUDGE. ONLY IN THIS STANCE DO I STAND A CHANCE OF ACCURATELY PERCIEVING THE SOUL, ESSENCE, OR VIBRATION, OF ANOTHER HUMAN BEING. I CAN ONLY YRY TO DO THIS. ONE STEP, ONE HOUR, ONE DAY, AT A TIME AND HOPEFULLY RECLAIM MYSELF AND SELF WORTH AGAIN! TO BE HONEST AT THIS VERY MOMENT, I JUST CANNOT SEE IT!